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that doesn’t feel too good. BUT it’s to be an extra in a movie so it all balances out. kind of.

Seriously, why am I usually so lazy?! I’ve been really on top of my game all week, and it feels SOO much better than wasting time and being a bum. Hopefully this post doesn’t jinx me because I can’t resist sharing how amazing I’ve been. First of all, I’ve accomplished almost everything on my to-do list for the week! I cannot stress how huge this is for me. I’m the kind of person that will write “write a to-do list” on my to-do list just so that I have one thing I can for sure cross off of it. I also write “watch TV” on to-do lists because that’s something I know I’ll do. Sad.

But this week I had a project and a paper due, and I finished BOTH of them DAYSSSS before they were due. What?! And I took two dance/fitness classes: hip hop and zumba. Both were super fun, of course. I even got to learn part of Beyonce’s Single Ladies dance [a song I hate, the dance was like the greatest thing ever]. Like, I really can’t stop asking myself why I haven’t been living like this forever! So annoying. But whatever. At least I’m doing good now. I also went grocery shopping and did my laundry. Who am I?

But the biggest news of the week is that I officially made my hair appt. to BLEACH MY HAIR BLONDE!! AAHHHHH!! So nervous, but I COMPLETELY trust the salon [Above Ground Studio in Ann Arbor] because they really really seemed to know what they were talking about. They even went as far as to say that I won’t want to dye it back after the show!! That’s big. Before and After pics of myself to come!!

= not accomplishing the goals I’ve set for my life

Umm, hi. My life just got real. I’m infinitely grateful that I was chosen for the part of Ulla in “The Producers,” but the truth is that I was like thirty-thousandth in line for the role. It just so happened that the earth aligned in such a way that everyone that would’ve been chosen ahead of me couldn’t commit or had some other ridiculous conflict that allowed for me to get cast. Which is crazy. This kind of stuff NEVER happens to me! So I’m super happy that I have this opportunity.

BUT- and it’s a big but- I AM SO UNPREPARED TO TAKE THE STAGE IN TWO MONTHS!

I just youtubed a bajillion videos of the Broadway performance of “The Producers,” and I seriously need to step up my game if I want to do justice to any of the songs. Now, let me be clear. I am not attempting to diminish my capabilities or say that I’m not qualified for the role. I’m just saying that I’m rusty. Very rusty.  And it’s gonna take A LOT of work to get me ready for this. I am VERY CONFIDENT that I can do that work. I’m just saying that I have no margin for error.

These next two months are going to be about discipline, willpower, focus and extreme dedication. I can’t sneak slices of ice cream cake at two in the morning anymore. And I can’t pretend that walking to class is a justifiable alternative to hitting the gym. 

And that’s not all. I need to enroll in dance classes STAT, work on my vocals IMMEDIATELY, and dye my hair blonde FIVE MINUTES AGO.

Ulla is a role I never- I repeat: NEVER- thought I would or really could get cast in. But the impossible does indeed happen. And I am NOT going to embarrass myself in Ann Arbor this September. I’m going to step my game up and surprise myself. Because when I pull this off I will have surpassed the potential that even I thought I would ever have.

Time to get to work! Aahhhh!